February 16, 2005
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“The sweet’s not as sweet without the sour.” –The Supporting Cast-
The Brandtson show last night was amazing. They dedicated the whole show to Dave, and the seven of us rocked out like it was our jobs. They opened with “Mercy Medical” & I started to cry at “welcome to your funeral” but then I stopped & just went with the music, and Dave, and remembering & forgetting both at the same time. Brandon & I watched the clock strike
It’s harder here, with no one around… it’s harder here where no one knew him & where no one knows me, really, but I’m slowly seeing that if I seek people out, they are there for me. Maybe it’s not like it is at home, where friends come out of the woodwork as soon as there is trouble, but maybe that’s okay.
I have so many amazing people in my life… so many people said so many things to me this weekend- you’d think that in the haze of the grief, I wouldn’t remember them, but I remember the important ones…
I found a note from him the other day. It reads, “Stay strong & feel loved- because you are.” So that’s what I’m doing. Crying isn’t a sign of weakness, it’s a sign of release… so I’m going to kepe crying until I don’t need to anymore.
Thank you, to all of you.
Comments (13)
Wow. That's so amazing how you can overcome a loss like that.
I've always thought about if I had to die early.
I'd want my funeral to be a big party! Celebrate life.
well, dave's family is in my prayers!
have a good weekend!
Hey I'm terribly sory about your loss - although it probably seems cliche, because I don't even know you. But I truly am sorry, and I will be praying for you and his family.
i knew him.
you are incredible. i'm always here for you. i'm just down that huge-ass hill.
"Celebrate we will, for life is short, but sweet for certain"
I'm here for you Katy, if you ever need anything
I am so mad that i wasn't there with you all. Oh well, miss you already, MAUH and hugs and a kleenex when you need one
You are loved, and don't ever forget it....you know i am here whenever...even if I am a 21 year old mom type...
haha. annie's comment made me laugh. mom, sister, friend, whatever i act like to you, know that if i hear your salsa marimba ring in the middle of the night, i'll pick up. even though we don't always get along like we're best friends, we are! so you know when you need me, i'll be there. when you don't need me, i'll be there. when you want me, and you know you do, i'll be there! i love you lots babe! sometimes i may not have the right words to say or anything like that, but i'll listen to you whenever. promise me if you need anything, you won't hesitate to ask. love and hugs!
katy- everytime i read your site i realize what a smart and wonderful girl you are. miss you- amy
that sounds like a truly amazing show. i wish i could have attended.
we look very alike, eh?
yes, you did meet my brother
i love your hair, too
i just recently added some purple fading to blue on the underside of my hair =| out of boredom
"The cure for grief is motion." - Elbert Hubbard
In other words, keep moving. You are so strong.
<3
one more...
"No one's death comes to pass without making some impression, and those close to the deceased inherit part of the liberated soul and become richer in their humanness." -Herman Broch
Love you... you know we let you cry...
all my friends at college are gone T.T ALL of them except like 2 or 3 got kicked out T.T this sucks...
Hey Katy....its becky halsey. I tried to confirm your facebook but it hates me. I wanted to tell you the same things everyone does...I'm entirely and completely sorry for your loss with Dave. I don't know the depth of your friendship and relationship but i know it was deep. You are in my prayers and have been from the moment Sean told me. And you will be for a long long time...its not going to be easy moving on and figuring out where to place this but I know you have the strength to do it. Its been years since we've had a good talk, let alone a heart to heart, but I love you. My screenname is GreenEyes1913. IM me and we'll talk sometime. Prayers and hugs...Becky
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