November 12, 2005
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“I thought that you might have some advice to give on how to be insensitive.” –Jan Arden-
The worst part about being “an emotional mess” is that I’m never as covert as I think I am. I can be manipulative, yes, but I can be manipulated just as easily. I can be secretive, yes, but just as often, I reveal everything without ever realizing it.
And I have no secrets, do I? Everyone knows all of me. Everyone can see everything that I am. I’m so obvious, and not in a good way. Everything I feel is exposed, to everyone, all of the time.
I know this isn’t affecting him like it’s affecting me. That might make me even madder- or just ashamed? I need to get over it. I need to not care. But I only care because it’s affecting someone I love. I only care because it’s putting a lot of stress on this relationship. I only care because I feel like he could ruin everything.
Okay, so I care. So sue me.
Comments (5)
sounds stressful, sorry babe. have a great rest of the weekend. i'll try to get something together for you in the next couple days or so!
You're NOT that transparent, you're over-exaggerating...
I still love you. And I DO think you're witty and fun...
(also he was 17! so they're now telling me...)
...and I miss you, TONNNS.
Umm. I don't know if you're aware of this but there are weird charaters in your posts. *ex: “I* Just thought you'd like a headsup, unless of course you meant for it to show.
hahaha! my name totally does not match me! Mae for Mae West and Anne for St. Anne. and i was born on May also.
whos the boy and whats his deal?are you in the middle of a breakup? grrr sometimes relationships are so frustrating!!!! good luck hunny!
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