“I gotta admit, sometimes it’s pretty sad- but it’s like we’re our own Brat Pack.” –The Rocket Summer-

First things first: Gwen Stefani was AMAZING. I’ve been a fan for so long… it was surreal to be at her show, rocking out & loving every minute! I was too poor to buy a “B-A-N-A-N-A-S” hoodie, like Amy did, but memories will certainly suffice!

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Next up: Vegas!!! And en extra bonus? Jen bought us tickets to go to THE RADIO MUSIC AWARDS while we’re there!!! How thrilling is that? And what do I wear?! Julia, Lauren- my fashionistas!- give me some ideas! I’m desperate here… Kelly Clarkson, Lifehouse, Rascall Flatts, Greenday, Snoop, Gwen & Ciara again… oh, man.

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Last night I didn’t even want to go out but I did & I got so drunk that I don’t remember a majority of the night. WTF? I never do that. I know that Marisa was big pimpin’; Annie & I did an interpretive dance to “Hero”; & Ryan ate donuts in a bar. And somehow, I pulled it off hangover-free this morning- that’s it, I’m amazing.

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Done with classes for the semester! Three finals next week & my first semester at Kent is over, finito, DONE!

“Take it to the back seat, run it like a track meet.”  –Gwen Stefani-

Have you ever over-planned? Like, you focus on something & worry so much about getting every detail perfect… that you miss the biggest point of all? I’ve been working on my Newswriting package for weeks & was ridiculously proud of it… today, the day it was due, I did not bring it to school with me.

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“Sucking hard on our innocence, but we’ve been bright in our decline.” –Franz Ferdinand-

“You’re owning up to nothing & I wish that I was gone cuz you’re not going anywhere.” –Dashboard Confessional-

Have I mentioned lately that I’m sick & tired of living at home? Oh, because I am. Nothing I do is ever right.

I was awake for 22 hours yesterday. How fitting, then, that I slept for 14 hours last night. I was so pissed when I woke up at 4 p.m., feeling like crap & it being nearly dark outside…

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Sooooo excited to be almost done with this semester because it’s starting to suuuuuck. Semesters are way too damn long! I’m finishing up all my assignments, selling my books online, & getting ready for finals… thank the Lord! Who wants to celebrate this weekend?!?!

I have zero to say. Basically I’m just pissed. Brian got it right when he said there’s too much estrogen in my house & not enough testosterone. Living here wears me out.

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“Love is spiders on the edge & we’re hanging by a thread.” –Lovedrug-

The show last night was… chaotic. Hunter was great for it being their first show; Denison was poetic & kind & humorous as ever; Lovedrug was beautiful & brilliant. I got yelled at by some indier-than-thou girl during Denison for talking too loudly; I called 911 for a drunk diabetic who was barfing everywhere; & I met up with Julie Kozak’s best friend in the bathroom, where we cried together & vented & comforted each other.

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A true friend shows up at your house after you call her in hysterics, & holds you while you curl up in bed & cry like a little kid, & snot all over your pillow. And then she tells you stories about Santa cheeks & model penises, & everything is okay again.

I’m so tired that when I put eyeliner on today, it actually made my eyes burn & water, rebelling because they wanted to be closed, & asleep in bed.

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I’m at work for about 15 hours or so today. Splendid. The day began with Brian waking me up at the ass-crack of day (it wasn’t dawn yet!) & me coming into work at 6:15 to find that Maintenance didn’t set up for today’s St. Nicholas Bazaar… So I did it, which took 2 hours of hard, sweaty labor.

Is it Winter Break yet???!!!!

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crazy baby, why did you do this? stupid boy, what were you thinking? 

i know nothing stays the same

but if you’re willing to play the game

it’s coming round again

so don’t mind if i fall apart

there’s more room in a broken heart

& they moved. there are no more cheesy country decorations out front & there’s an SUV & a truck in the driveway. there’s a stained-glass lighthouse in the window.

it’s the best friends that need you

in my case, believe you

it’s the best friends’ lives kiss you

in my case, i’ll miss you

there are three bouquets & two cards & one long strand of red stars. the rocks & shells & pennies & marbles have frozen to the bench that still doesn’t have your name on it.

so fall in love while you can still hold your head up high

& pretend that you’re alive again

(it’s friends that leave you here in the end)

happy birthday, baby: you should have been celebrating. growing older would have suited you so very well- i wish you'd had more faith in life.

 

"The days are running shorter by the hour..." -Daphne Loves Derby-

Right now I'm sitting in the basement of the Student Center, debating whether or not to go to Hillel's Chanukah party in the Rat. As their newest intern, I ought to... but I'm scared because I don't know anyone. Jews always have tight little groups. Being the outcast Jew is never, ever a good time.
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I'm being a total overachiever in my Newswriting class- I already have my entire final project done, for the most part. It's a good feeling, to not have to freak out about something at the very last minute.

I got a freaking parking ticket today, because I parked my car at a meter & forgot about it. Damn itttt. Like I have $15 to spare.
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My fab boyfriend took me to Chipotle today for lunch... & it was nice to finally have some one-on-one time, because it's so rare for us these days.

Lauren wants 5 random quirks about me, so here goes:

• I dip my Oreos in water because milk changes the way they taste. Water just makes them soggy, which is how they taste best.
  
• I crack my knuckles & joints compulsively. I can't stop myself, even when my mom screams at me. If I do one, I have to do them all- there's no stopping.
  
• I grind my teeth in my sleep. I had a dentist-made mouthguard for it, but I lost it at OU so now I wear a hockey mouthguard to bed. Hot, I know.
  
• I don't like listening to music I don't know, which extends to new CDs that I buy/download. It takes me forever to get around to listening to them, because I dislike things I don't know the words to yet.
  
• When parallel parking, I have to run over the curb before I'll park. otherwise, I never think I'm close enough.
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Annnnd I'm spent. I guess I'll wander over to the Rat.... yikes...