“They’re only gonna tell you about the bad things I’ve done. Even if the words they say are true, they’ve won.” –Augustana-
Good stuff first. I got a front desk job at the Nat! I’m SO excited… this means a guaranteed 20 hours a week, which means, of course, a guaranteed income of sorts. I no longer have to be the freeloader friend… which is glorious (for both me AND my friends). And I can start saving for an apartment!
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I was a huge bitch after about
Lots on my mind: in ten short days it will be one year since you-know-what; I have gained entirely too much weight; I wish I had one best friend who I could tell anything & everything to & never worry about being judged or outed; I don’t have a story for Wednesday’s article; sometimes I miss OU, where no one knew who I really was.
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I’m just in a freakin’ FUNK. I feel really bad about yesterday & called various to people to make apologies. Even listening to Dane Cook isn’t making me any happier. Tonight is Josh Malina at the KSU Ballroom & then my two favorite shows to hopefully bring my spirits back up.
This just in: protected post will be going up in a few.
EDIT: This just just in: spirits are actually further down than they were before. So much for Sunday night TV & a Jewish celebrity to do the trick.
“If you want something, don’t ask for nothing.” –The
My first article went in! Originally I didn’t think it did because I couldn’t find it online. I was all bummed when I called Kevin & my mom to tell them I didn’t make it… but then Amanda found it! Whoever copyedited screwed up an attribution but that’s not my fault. You can catch my not-so-big Stater debut here.
School is going well but I feel really unfulfilled. I feel like I’m failing at everything. I don’t know why… in reality, I’m doing fine for the most part. I guess its just my Print Beat class- I shiver to think about it. It’s THAT stressful.
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The primary thing keeping me going is the knowledge that in a couple weeks, I’ll be in Cleveland for the weekend with my fabulous boyfriend, seeing RENT & Sigur Ros & shopping at the two-story Target that has an escalator for shopping carts, staying in a room with a jacuzzi.
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This weekend is “Who’s Afraid of Virginia Woolfe?” with Kevin to see his mom perform, then the Cuyahoga Classic on Saturday, being a judges’ runner with my girls & watching Marisa & Alex emcee. Sunday is JOSH MALINA of The West Wing in the KSU Ballroom… man, even my weekends don’t slow down...
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I want a tuna sandwich. Tuna makes everything better, usually. That, or a nap…
“Give me confidence to stare & observe the world…” –The Spill Canvas-
Friday I ventured to
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More birthday fun on Saturday when the CF gang went to Fat Fish Blue for Tav’s post-23rd celebratory dinner. We had all sorts of fun watching people try to figure out which bathroom was the appropriate one for their respective genders, & burning holes in our esophagi with Cajun meat.
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Bridal fair 2006 on Sunday, where Marisa, Annie & I modeled some lovely bridal gowns, escorted by Kevin & Brian looking fabulously handsome in tuxedoes. For a brief hour, I had a horse-mane that somewhat resembled a mullet. I cried in the bathroom & finally asked to have it fixed. I felt decently pretty for the remainder of the day.
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My first Stater article is due tomorrow, & it should go into print on Thursday. I’m pumped. And terrified that I’m going to be the subject of criticism from the Editor like two of my classmates were in today’s email from him… among other various fears, which are all very rational, I promise.
Also: I have friend crushes on various people in various classes… here’s hoping I can grow the balls to turn friend crushes into actual friends, eh?
PS: This picture makes me feel pretty. Until I examine it too closely, & then I don't like it anymore because my bangs are sweepy & my boobs are smushy & I have back fat & a weird nose. Other than all that, I like it. So don't examine it too closely, okay? Okay. 
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“I know I’m a mess right now- don’t give up, believe.” –Armor for Sleep-
I’m going to be pretty much MIA this semester, so don’t expect to see me much. My print Beat class is going to murder me… I have an article due every single Wednesday, which may not sound scary but it IS. That’s a shit-ton of interviewing. My beat is Greek life, which is sort of cool because I do, contrary to popular belief, miss my sorority.
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My English teacher is a complete & utter lunatic. She wore leather pants AND a leather jacket the first day, & has short, spiky, bleach-blond hair a la Spike in Buffy. She sounds pained when she talks to the class, & she assigned us to… pick a book out of the library & bring it to class. WTF? I switched professors so hopefully tomorrow’s English class will be a better experience.
I was so proud of myself for getting so into working out… & now I can’t even fathom when I’ll have time to squeeze it in. I hardly have time to eat & when I do, I’m exhausted. I’ve started going to bed at
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I bought cowboy boots & for some reason I thought it was a good reason to wear them today. Can anyone tell me why Mother Nature only chose to get all wintery up in this hizzle AFTER Break ended? Like, when we all have to walk across campus? Especially since
Homework time. Splennnndid. I already miss relaxation!
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"Yeah, they talk about her- She smiles like she’s so tough. She says ‘Hey, can you talk a little louder? I don't think my heart is broken enough.'"
I feel like this year holds so much potential for me. Is that dumb? Probably.
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At this time tomorrow, I’ll have just completed my first day of spring semester! I’m sort of excited, because I’m taking some cool JMC classes:
§ Copyediting
§ Magazine Publishing
§ Print Beat (writing for the Stater)
§ Law of Mass Communication
§ Sophomore English (NOT so excited about this one)
It’s exiting to KNOW people in my upcoming classes. Jess sent me a Facebook message about Law of Mass Comm, & I have 2 classes with my Moslem… I love being comfortable on my new campus.
Speaking of my "Moslems", Aman invited me to Dima & Ameir’s joint birthday festivities this Friday. They’re going to Kan Zaman, an Arab restaurant/club in
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On the religious note, I’m currently watching Saved! while cleaning my room… & I freaking adore this movie. I mean, really, it’s ingenious.
Applebee’s with Ameir tonight as my reward for spending all day cleaning my room. Yayyyy for reuniting with school friends after a long & wonderful Break! Happy Back-to-School, all you Flashes & Zips!
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“Were it not for hearts like mine, calloused thickly, you could fall so easily.” –Copeland-
“Did I get hit by a cement truck last night” – text I received from Annie this morning in regards to her/our redrunkulous state yesterday evening. The Lovedrug show turned out to only be an Andy Dolson show, since the headliners didn’t, well, show. Andy was darling, though, & it was well worth the $4 to support a local musician.
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Work was miserable tonight. I mean, really, could anything else have gone wrong? I felt like such an incompetent moron ALL day… & I only worked for 3 ½ hours.
Speaking of 3 ½, that’s how many miles I walked tonight. I don’t know if that counts as “working out,” but I feel good about it. I saw Christos, the bartender, & he walked 2 of the miles with me, to ease the boringness factor.
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We have no food in my home. I had a delicious tuna sandwich on a croissant today… my mouth is watering just thinking about it. I. Am. Hungryyy.
PS, I’m not drinking for a month. I feel like an asshole when I wake up hungover.
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“Life’s too short, babe, & time is flyin’. I’m lookin’ for baggage that goes with mine.” –Rent-
I ate chips with habanera salsa at Pancho & Lefty’s tonight. My mouth has been on fire for approximately 1.5 hours.
We went to Brubaker’s last night & Brian, who left early, called to tell me he left his jacket there. Upon searching for his jacket, I ran across Annie’s leather coat, which she must have left there, so I took it home with me… only to discover this morning that it is not, in fact, hers. Whoooops!!!
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Also, my whole body is basically STILL sore even though I swear I didn’t do anything super-strenuous. Mainly the soles of my feet feel like rubber bands.
My mom is one of those people who talks to the TV. Sometimes it embarrasses me even when no one else is around.
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Sometimes I look back at Athens & wonder how I survived there for as long as I did. I have Engine 51 & they're all I need out of OU, really. And you'd better believe that I will say anything I damn well please to ANY of the girls in that sorority who mess with my REAL friends. They can't touch me now. (I <3 U, Jess)
Tomorrow is Andy Dolson opening for Lovedrug at the Outpost in Brimfield. Join us, if ya want some good music!
EDIT: I found my thought-to-be-lost-&-gone-forever flashdrive today, which means my life is back on track. Really, the world shook on its axis when this thing was misplaced.
“Any idiot can play Greek for a day & join a sorority or write a tragedy & articulate all that pain.” –Rilo Kiley-
Soooo, scratch that. I was supposed to go to
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Basically, I’m so sore from my two-day workout that I feel like I got trampled by a horse & can literally barely walk down the stairs. Secondly, I got zero sleep last night & had a horribly long, stressful day yesterday, so as I got onto Rt. 8 to go to OU, I could hardly keep my eyes open. And then… the rains came. I don’t drive in rain… so I tried to wait it out, by taking a nap… & then didn’t wake up at a decent time. So I’m still here.
I know you’re mad at me, & I really am sorry… but sometimes you have to do what’s right for yourself, even when it’s going to let other people down. My body was screaming at me today. I couldn’t make a 3-hour trip & 2 nights of alcohol. I’m sorry.
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Looks like it’s going to be a Desperate Housewives kind of night…
Don't miss me too much!
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