July 2, 2006

• “Every voice inside my head is telling me to run like mad.” –Jann Arden-

  
  

   

  
  

  Tonight was a good time even if I didn’t adore the salsa club because I can’t really dance all that well. Kayla & I came home to chill with other people, & we had a good time even if Aaron was a bit sassy & Caroline brought home an unknown guy.

  
  

   

  
  

  Erin says she doesn’t know why my hair is such a hot topic of conversation, & I sort of agree, but I’ve been thinking a lot lately. I always feel ugly & I’m very, very sick of it, but at the same time, I think I’m learning a lot about myself & my ego & my self-esteem… and if for nothing else, then I guess what I did was worth it, for that.

  
  

   

  
  

  It’s funny how the people you trust the least because they dislike you the most sometimes spill things to you. It’s funny how you can switch back into Friend Mode with someone you’ve been in Acquaintance Mode (& even Enemy Mode) with for so long… It’s funny how some things never change.

  
  

   

  
  

  My blisters are taking over my life, & my ankle is still swollen, but I went to the zoo with my roommates today, & it was  splendid. I’m having a good time here & finding my place even if, as Natania said, we still all know nothing about one another. I’m relatively comfortable, & I feel like “relatively” is all I can really hope for, anyway…

  
  

  ((()))

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