July 23, 2006
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“You’re lucky to be alive & I wouldn’t count on anything. Proceed with caution from here on in.” –The New Amsterdams-
Patrick & Anthony came to visit me last night! It was really nice to hang out with some gentiles after all this Jewry, although a bit awkward because Patrick & I have never really hung out outside a familial setting. He took me to
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I’m glad I did this program & I truly love D.C., but I’m ready for some CF. It’s funny how I always want to be somewhere else, how I always need a break from one place then want to go back, & then it all starts over again.
One of my suitemates just got some really excruciating news from home. It’s so hard to listen to her crying in the next room, when I understand so well those phone calls that send you to your knees in pain & prayer. Tomorrow’s her birthday, too, which makes it that much more hurtful.
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There are a lot of things on my mind & I wish I had someone to spill them all to, but there’s not really anyone, here or at home… so I’m headed to bed to mull things over by myself.
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It’s funny how I always want to be somewhere else, how I always need a break from one place then want to go back, & then it all starts over again.
There are a lot of things on my mind & I wish I had someone to spill them all to, but there’s not really anyone, here or at home… so I’m headed to bed to mull things over by myself.
I'm actually in that exact state of mind at the moment. So know that, even though you have no idea who I am, someone else out there is feeling the exact same way you are.
a) just figured out how to do this comment thing on xanga...sam=huge retard
b) miss you girl
c) and i am in the "i have so many things to say but don't where to go thing"
d) i received two blows to the head today....elbow to the nose, head against counter....a non sequitur i know but i thought it was funny
I got a second tattoo.
oh no, i hope she'll be alright. what exactly did she hear? i had no idea your dad passed away. and thats cool you got to go hang with his side of the family. very cool. i know what you mean about missing out on family stuff, except without the someone dieing part, most of my dads family lives in Rhode Island (some now in Flordia) and Virginia, so I rarely get to see them. I can't remember the last time I went to RI was. I honestly think it might have been when my great-g-ma passed away when I was in high school, or a few years after. Not sure. But I miss it, and I love it up there. ANyways, youll be home soon enough!! and i bet that once you are home you'll be missing DC!! haha, isn't it odd how things like that work. love ya gurl!!
I very much relate to you missing your father. My father took his life when I was a young teenager, and I also feel that I've missed out on quite a bit of family related activities. However, the emotional drain and missing part in my younger masculine developement has made me somewhat stronger, mentally and spiritually. I'm sure, because of your experience, you have become stronger, in some way, as well. Well, I find you to have a strong sence/''aura'' about you. It's very admirable and makes me smile. =)
Any way...........If you're interested, I'll always listen to anything you feel like telling me. I would like to help you in any way I could. Please, if you have a problem or just want to vent. Don't hesitate, that is if, you trust me. You do trust me, don't you?! =P
Mucho loves!!
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