October 2, 2006

• “It’s awful being a grown-up, but the carousel never stops turning. You can never get off..” –Ellis Grey, ‘Grey’s Anatomy’-

   

  Today I made a decision that I thought was for the best. I took my own happiness into consideration above all else, & I really thought it would be the right thing for me.

   

  My mom calls me at 10:00 and again at 10:20, leaving these cryptic messages that just say “call me.” When I call her back, she’s furious with me, saying I’m my own worst enemy & basically that I’m making this awful decision & throwing the money card into the game…

   

  The phone call ended with me saying, “Screw you, Mom,” and her hanging up on me. I proceeded to cry until I peeled myself off my bed to write this entry.

   

  I can’t feel bad. I did what I needed to do. I’m not unhappy with what I did because I was too unhappy with what I was doing. Right? Right, right… Elise & Dave & I, all we do, every day, is tell each other we’re  miserable & contemplate how we can figure things out.

   

  I don’t want to be miserable. I made the right choice. I did...

   

   

  like children, we never give up hope

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