Protected up
(hit it)

“I’m done rippin’ myself off.” –The Raconteurs-

I had a really fabulous weekend. I braved the 7 Floors of Hell haunted houses in Berea with some Stater pals then hit up a rockin’ party which you can read about here. Saturday, I chilled with the gang for Mel’s birthday (I bought her a mag-in-a-bag, alcohol & a lottery ticket!).

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                       *these are my bosses!!!

Also, Kevin & I carved pumpkins last night. Mine were pretty generic, but they turned out better than last year’s! It’s nice to be on such amicable terms with my ex – I think we’ve making the relationship-to-friendship transition nicely.

I’m so addicted to Chipotle green salsa that the girl at the register recognizes me & tonight introduced herself to me. I went purely to stockpile some more salsa.

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I bought my entire Halloween costume (sans tights & wig, so I guess it’s not “entire”) at Goodwill for $12. I’m really excited about it, even though my culturally inept Little says she has no idea who the “person” I’m being is.

I think I’m going to really like my new position at the Stater. I know it was a risk asking to be reassigned, but sometimes you have to do what’s going to keep you sane, & if I value anything these days, it’s my sanity. I’ve been assigned to write about a local guy who may win a reality TV show – neat!

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PS, apparently I’m actually a closet sci-fi geek. First The 4400 and now this – Heroes. Kinda cool.

Semper Fi,

Sgt. Walsh:

Thank you for everything.

Click here.

“When I grow up & get married, I’m livin’ alone!” –‘Home Alone’-

I’m on sensory overload. All I want is to watch goddamn Grey’s Anatomy & ER in peace. I don’t want to talk, I don’t want to listen, I just want to watch. I want to write my Feature writing assignment. I want to go to bed early so I can wake up at 7 a.m. to cover the Media Mindsets Conference tomorrow.

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My roommate is on her webcam on the couch next to me, yelling into her computer, listening to her voicemails on loudspeaker, & occasionally trying to chat with me. More importantly, my neighbors on both sides are partying, listening to music so loud that things are practically falling off our walls.

I’m so tired of inconsiderate people. I need to get the TV to work in my bedroom so that I never have to leave it. That doesn’t help with the neighbors, though… maybe I’ll call the cops on them, or turn them in to the landlord for having a cat.

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I want to cry. I want to sleep. I want to go to my mom’s. I want to personally murder half of my housing development.

Sgt. Justin Walsh died this morning from wounds sustained in an Iraqi bombing.

He was a nice guy, a smart guy, a brave guy - a true "hometown hero" if ever one existed.

Cuyahoga Falls & the United States military were lucky to have had him.

Rest in peace, Justin.
You will always be remembered.

“Leavin’ me with no place left to go from here; leavin’ me so many questions all these years.” –Sheryl Crow-

I have a little crush that is going absolutely nowhere, & I’m a little bit frustrated that it even exists. Blah.

My downloading program works again. There’s music in my life once more! Thank heavens.

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I went to Chipotle today simply to pick up chips & salsa. I wanted to stash up, so I got six little containers of green salsa. I felt like a freak buying so much, but now I have a mini stockpile. Yummmm. 

Today I followed the abortion trucks all over campus, looking for student responses for an article. You know, the anti-choice crazies were driving around trucks with graphic images of aborted fetuses, & they flew a plane with a banner of one over campus, too. I followed the damn things for 45 minutes! So is my life. Ha.

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Elise & I hit up Swenson’s today for her first-ever experience there, and I must say, it was pretty splendid. Potato Teezers are phenommmmenal. I’m a sucker for fried fair-style food… and clogged arteries.

Today it’s been a whopping 20 months since our lives turned upside down – who’s counting? I wish I weren’t…

“Call it self-defense. You can obfuscate & manipulate, but it’s only at your own expense.” –Barenaked Ladies

Everyone I know has apparently abandoned Xanga, which means no one really reads mine anymore. Kind of a bummer, but I’ll probably keep writing.

Sukkot began on Friday, & I kicked it off with sukkah decorating at Hillel on Thbursday night. It was a bit awkward because I didn’t know anyone, but Sukkot is such a nice holiday. I love the fall, & it’s such an autumnal holiday… I just felt really at home, spiritual. It was great.

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I’ve been feeling pretty lonely lately. I don’t think I’m ready to be in a relationship, but I wouldn’t mind dating or at least crushing. I’m still struggling with some hair-induced self-esteem issues, but things are getting better – now, it’d be nice if I ever met any new guys… blech.

Things I want but cannot afford:

·          The newest Barenaked  Ladies CD

·          My Hebrew “persevere” tattoo

·          Stamps to mail the thank yous/apologies I have written

·          The second season of “Desperate Housewives” on DVD

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Everything is okay.

“People don’t seem really happy where they are. They’re always looking for a different place, a different person – just different.” –George, ‘Dead Like Me’-

I drank a Vitamin C smoothie & afterwards read the ingredients. One of them? Maitake mushrooms. I am allergic to mushrooms. Commence freak-outage. Damn it.

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There were two, count ‘em, two spiders crawling across my car windows today. My mom used to say, “Spiders come to a happy home,” but my battered Civic is not all that happy, so I wish these arachnids would leave me the hell alone.

Speaking of the Civ (Sylvia), I had a few abusive driving experiences today. I was sworn at by an overzealous pedestrian who couldn’t wait 10 seconds to cross the street & later was almost backed into by a big, hankin’ SUV. Not my vehicular day.

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My Robin Hood story went in the Stater today, and I’m really happy with it. They cut it a lot & it took second fiddle to Sara’s bartender story, but it’s still a good piece & a good clip. Props to myself.

“It’s awful being a grown-up, but the carousel never stops turning. You can never get off..” –Ellis Grey, ‘Grey’s Anatomy’-

Today I made a decision that I thought was for the best. I took my own happiness into consideration above all else, & I really thought it would be the right thing for me.

My mom calls me at 10:00 and again at 10:20, leaving these cryptic messages that just say “call me.” When I call her back, she’s furious with me, saying I’m my own worst enemy & basically that I’m making this awful decision & throwing the money card into the game…

The phone call ended with me saying, “Screw you, Mom,” and her hanging up on me. I proceeded to cry until I peeled myself off my bed to write this entry.

I can’t feel bad. I did what I needed to do. I’m not unhappy with what I did because I was too unhappy with what I was doing. Right? Right, right… Elise & Dave & I, all we do, every day, is tell each other we’re  miserable & contemplate how we can figure things out.

I don’t want to be miserable. I made the right choice. I did...

like children, we never give up hope

“It was hard to  tell just how I felt to not recognize myself – I started to fade away.” –Feist-

I took one of those naps where I woke up & wasn’t sure what day it was. Also, my entire apartment was dark & empty… weird.

My cousin Michael’s wedding was fabulous, beautiful, expensive. It was held at The Foundry, rated the #1 place in the city to get hitched, according to About.com. I met a couple of people who are interested in helping me find an internship & possibly even a job in NYC.

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I think my neighbors are: A) renovating their entire townhome, B) trapped in the basement, C) nailing every picture known to man to their walls, D) starting a bongo band, or E) all of the above. They’ve been banging, non-stop, on something for 2 hours now.

This weekend I have no plans except for work on Saturday & Daphne’s 2^nd birthday party on Sunday. Nice & relaxing… but we’ll see how I actually feel by the time the weekend rolls around, huh?

PS, my grandma bought me my Chanukah present… from Tiffany & Co.

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