G-d bless whomever wrote this on the bathroom mirror of the Music & Speech building.

(it made my day!)

“We’ll never be younger than today, & today’s left us so fast.” –Tahiti 80-

I threw out a burned cone of apple cider incense that had, apparently, not finished burning. It burnt a hole straight through the bottom of my trash can, melting plastic & ash onto my rental carpet.

I’m currently doing homework while watching “Keeping up with the Steins,” which is hilariously Jewish & makes me miss my MKs all the more. I miss kosher & Yiddish & crazy, opinionated Jews.

Everyone should buy and/or download the soundtrack to “Everything is Illuminated,” which has made my life a happier place to be. Seriously. It’s fucking amazing.

One thing even a stellar soundtrack cannot cure is the fact that I ran out of money. Embarrassing & awful: I can’t pay my bills & have to borrow $500 from my mom for my winter rent. Damn it.

 EDIT: The biggest disappointment of my semester thus far came tonight, but I can't talk about it on here. I actually cried because I was so freaking bummed. I was so excited, so proud, only to realize it's all fucked up. But who can I even tell? There goes what could have been the best part of my year.

An update on my entertainment-driven life, as follows:

Recently viewed movies:

·          “Another Gay Movie”

·          “Casino Royale”

·          “John Tucker Must Die”

·          “Monster House”

·          “Everything is Illuminated”

·          “Apocalypto”

Also recently viewed:

·          Season 1 of “Lost”

·          Season 2 of “Lost,” discs 1-5 only

Currently working on:

·          “The Da Vinci Code”

·          “Pirates of the Caribbean 2” (not

·          Season 2 of “Lost,” discs 6 & 7

Rented but haven’t started:

·          “Elizabethtown”

·          “Keeping Up With the Steins”

And currently reading:

·          The Dirty Girls Social Club by Alisa Valdes-Rodriguez

Oh! And recently downloaded:

·          The Animal Collective

·          Beep Beep

·          Two Gallants

Also obsessed with:

·          Apple cider incense cones

·          Glade apple cinnamon candles

·          Buying more star ornaments

·          Being almost done with the semester

no one else will know these lonely dreams;
no one else will know that part of me.

Happy Birthday to the most phenomenal boy I have ever known.

i’m still driving away,
And i'm sorry every day.

I said it last year, & I’ll say it again, & I think I will say it every year, anyhow: Adulthood would have suited you so well.

i won’t always love these selfish things.
i won’t always live not stopping.

And if you’d made it, baby? Well, you would have been even more beautiful. I know it.

i won't always love what i'll never have.
i won't always live in my regret.

I love you.

 HOW AM I NOT MYSELF??!